Even as a fan of Ben from his Bulls days, I had no idea….

Where Is My Mind? - By Ben Gordon 🔗 🏀 🧠 💊

Content Warning: This essay contains strong language about suicide and suicidal thoughts.

There was a point in time when I thought about killing myself every single day for about six weeks. I would be up on the roof of my apartment building at four o’ clock in the morning, just pacing to the edge of the ledge, looking over — pacing back and forth, back and forth — just thinking, I’m really about to do it, B. I’m about to escape from all this shit. This was right after my last year in the league, and I was living in a brownstone up in Harlem. I had lost my career, my identity, and my family all pretty much simultaneously….